Domestic Serenity

a new home for this journal

2011-01-13T12:18:00.001-05:00

for all who have come across these pages,

ramblings of this servant's heart,

you are invited to continue the journey

at our new home.

I'll look for you there.

ramblings

2011-01-10T22:31:00.000-05:00

A few random thoughts today....

:: last week the whole family experienced some level of the first cold/flu of the season. We were to start back to school, but days filled with fevers simply led us to take all things slowly--back on track this week!

:: my January goals are also dragging though I've gathered up items to list for sale.

:: the blog is undergoing some changes this week, so if I'm not around much, no worries! If all goes well, the design and content will be tweaked a little--exciting!

:: a few tea party napkins started last summer in need of finishing (a certain little girl would be most happy). They've found their way into my 'to create' pile.

Whatever the week has brought you so far, I hope it's been good!

grateful

2011-01-05T07:35:00.000-05:00

pausing today to give thanks....

for a toddler's smile and sloppy kisses

our son's pursuit of reading and writing skills (very intent this child)

our third girl's desire to create (so like her Mama she is!)

for a twelve-year old's efforts in study

watching the growth in our young adult daughter

being graced with her little guy's focused, yet sweet, personality.

In all this, Lord...I feebly attempt to give you praise. Though a woman of words, combining 26 letters to share my heart with you often fails to express my gratitude.

So simply...

thank you.



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moving into 2011

2011-01-02T17:40:00.001-05:00

Happy New Year everyone!

I'm not one for resolutions and such, but I am goal oriented and a lover of lists. So, it's exciting to be participating in a new venture!

Listing out THREE goals to meet every 30 days. Each month, choosing three attainable goals and getting them done. Yes, I like that.

There's a community feel to the project as others join in to encourage. Overall, a great idea!

So, here are my goals for the month of January ~

:: get back on track with green smoothies daily (holiday feasting caused this to fall by the wayside; that's okay, but time to regroup!)

:: use the time budget I created with Tell Your Time (the goal is to be consistent, not perfect. we will have days where flexibility is required)

:: list my 'to sell' items in the basement on craigslist (if I do not sell them in January, then I will give them away)

Consider joining in?

time in the Big Apple

2010-12-30T10:30:00.003-05:00

Christmas break has included some serious down time for this Mama {a much appreciated gift of time from my spouse!}....

So I journeyed upstate a bit to visit my sister in the big city of New York, taking in some rest and relaxation and the sites of bustling life in a metropolitan area.

~ cooped up for a morning in her apartment, I enjoyed the treats this gracious sibling of mine provided!

~ hot tea and good books, a great combination

~ perusing through her many cookbooks!

~ naturally there were many options of international food, Peruvian and Cuban were our cuisines of choice.

A relaxing set of days!

the beauty of Christmas

2010-12-21T17:25:00.000-05:00

There are some who are cynical about this season,

pointing fingers and questioning the generosity of others :: wondering if it's temporary or if after the tinsel a giving spirit will continue.

Yes, it's true. Some may forget and in the next 11 months choose to withhold funds, time, or focus from those in need.

I am more encouraged however by those who have chosen to participate now and for whom this is a lifestyle. Stories of how families and individuals are reaching out have so blessed me in the last few weeks!

Some are making commitments of finances, supporting with currency.

Others I see volunteering and stretching their time budget further.

Still others are carving out space in their hearts and homes for hospitality, renewed to give afresh in this way.

All distrubuting kindness, hope, love and encouragement to another. And I pause to praise. Truly this is how our Lord intended it to be?

In the rest of this week...

...and in the weeks beyond, be encouraged. Watch for displays of giving, and rejoice!

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fun for the season :: homemade for teachers

2010-12-17T07:20:00.001-05:00

If there's anyone who deserves some holiday cheer & appreciation, it's the many teachers, coaches, helpers, etc. who work with children throughout the year! Hats off to these amazing individuals who pour their hearts out and somehow wrangle an often large group into learning; whether it be math, language, dance, music or another pursuit.

While we base our educational studies from home, our children are involved in various activities or classes during the week. We decided this year to make a brown sugar body scrub as gifts, seeing that most of these teachers are women! A quick & easy (and delicious smelling) project.

The cast of characters:

Brown Sugar Body Scrub

1/4 cup brown sugar

1/4 cup fine sea salt

1/2 to 1 ounce oil (sunflower, almond are good choices)

1/2 TBsp kaolin or white china clay (we ordered ours from Mountain Rose Herbs)

1/2 TBsp honey

2 drops of essential oil (we used lavender)

Mix all ingredients in a small bowl and spoon into a jar. Oil will settle on top, just stir before use. To use, gently massage scrub in circular motions over body and then rinse with warm water. Do not use on the face. Makes 4 oz.

Our containers were bought off eBay several years ago :: just plastic 4 oz containers. Mountain Rose carries a variety of jars and such as well as crafters on Etsy (which, if you haven't been here...grab a cup of coffee or tea and visit a while)!

A simple label with a Christmas sticker and instructions from the recipe above completed our gifts. We then used tissue paper, some sprinkles of shredded paper and a bit of gold cord to wrap up these treats!

Simple, quick and not too difficult for even the youngest of gift givers!

easy peasy pie crust 'cookies'

2010-12-15T07:32:00.020-05:00

True confessions are in order today. Deep breath...inhale...exhale...okay, here we go:

I really do not enjoy baking cookies.

Yes, yes, I find the art of cooking in general to be a solace; and muffins, breads and the like are at the top of my baking list. But cookies? Not so much. Only if I'm truly inspired.

With the holidays of course comes the expectation that whipping up these delectable treats takes priority on the to-do list. There are plans next week for gingerbread cookies as this endevour succeeded last year.

But until then, I've discovered an idea to keep my children happy (taming the Mom, when are we going to bake cookies!? question) and to keep me sane and happy as well. Which is on the top of the priority list around here. Want to know my secret?

Pie Crust.

To be more precise :: make 'cookies' out of pie crust.

And I'm not even talking about homemade. Just the plain old two-per-package, rolled-up, store-bought pie crust. I bring them to room temperature, let the kiddos unroll and break out the cookie cutters.

I can almost hear the Hallelujah chorus being sung. Seriously. This idea is such a winner around here!

Easy Peasy.

After cutting out shapes, brush the 'cookies' with some melted butter.....

Sprinkle on some cinnamon sugar or plain sugar. We used vanilla bean cane sugar (a delicious gift from upstate, thanks Grandad!)......

Bake at 425 degrees for 12-14 minutes and...

...voila! Cookies! (sort of).

We eat these with ice cream or sherbert, but think of the possibilities!

top a pie crust cookie with fruit salad and drizzle with maple syrup
drizzle with melted white, dark or milk chocolate
add warm pie filling on top and add whipped cream

Yum! Best of all, my children are satisfied until our real cookie baking session! Yes.

fun for the season :: popcorn & cranberry garland

2010-12-13T07:34:00.000-05:00

As usual, there’s a need for me to prioritize the many ideas I had for crafts & projects this Christmas! Naturally, the ratio of little ones to Mama definitely determines what those projects will be. Ahem. Additionally this year, our geography curriculum calls for many cultural celebrations of the Christmas season.

So…

We have lots of plans, but they are not too complicated (at least I hope not)!

Cranberry and popcorn garlands were simple enough. I heard that day-old popcorn works better than freshly popped (which we used) as it’s a little stiffer. We also chose dental floss as a stronger & easier to work with alternative to thread. For younger children, a tapestry needle is bigger and more blunt…and hopefully lessens the chance of pricking fingers!

An easy project and treat for the birds!

watch for the light today

2010-12-10T09:27:00.001-05:00

“What we are in fact celebrating is the awe-inspiring humility of God,

and no amount of familiarity with the trappings of Christmas should ever blind us

to it’s quiet but explosive significance…”

excerpt from Watch for the Light :: Readings for Advent and Christmas

Today, choose beyond the glitter of the temporary

to view the eternal.

Emmanuel, God with us,

has COME.

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give the gift of change

2010-12-07T08:52:00.000-05:00

In this season there are many appeals for giving….

to various organizations and ministries, both local and abroad. Not wanting to overload that message, but also wanting to pause and encourage, today I offer two organizations our family participates in at this time of year. Places where we can make a difference in the daily lifestyles of others.

World Vision Gift Catalog :: from clean water to medical care, assistance for educational needs to goats, chickens and cows, World Vision's commitment is to provide for those in need. Gifts to children in the USA or abroad, to families, individuals or communities...there are many options for any budget!

Gospel for Asia's Gift Catalog :: join with other families or church community to send a camel or water buffalo (or rabbits, lambs, etc) to a location where it would be fitting and quite helpful to own such an animal. There are also options for sponsorship of missionaries or of individual children.

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Whether locally or internationally...

...through your congregation or as a family

...consider giving a gift of change for another.

remembering Thanksgiving

2010-12-01T09:46:00.001-05:00

The day and weekend flew by so quickly and now the season of Advent & Christmas celebrations are upon us.

But, I want to pause this all for a moment and remember….

and be grateful once again for the gathering of family (both sides visited our home last week!), for the grace of our Lord and for the freedom to mark such a day.

A full heart sings with gratitude!

the bargain shopper in me…

2010-11-29T13:57:00.001-05:00

…is enjoying the buzz today for Cyber Monday! Except that Amazon was running a bit slow earlier this morning (or maybe this was just our computer?).

I think it’s safe to say I like a bargain. Shopping for our essentials, and for some wants as well, while paying rock-bottom prices is just plain old FUN! And keeping the extra dollars in our pocket makes me smile too.

Nothing new, this bent towards frugality has been a part of me for as long as I can remember. Scanning the paper for coupons, checking out grocery fliers & such was not a task my mother enjoyed, and so I simply accompanied her to the store with my envelope of ‘deals’ and we often shopped together this way.

As now manager in my own home with many more responsibilities than groceries, the process still finds its way into my days. I like the feeling of ‘beating the system’ (or maybe I’m simply competitive this way!).

Seasons come & go and depending on where we are in life, this hunt for a good bargain is often present or sometimes takes a back seat as it does take time. And time is very precious to me, so it’s a balancing act. In ‘honor’ of Cyber Monday and the pursuit of a good deal, I’ll share a few of my favorites ~

photo by renjith krishnan

:: are you using Swagbucks yet? I discovered these virtual dollars earlier this year, and they are great! The primary way of earning is online searching, but there are options for taking surveys, sharing referrals, etc. I’ve only used the search feature (I type everything into the swagbucks toolbar, even if I know the website address already) and have so far earned $50 in Amazon gift certificates! Which I promptly use on…

:: ….buying diapers on Amazon Mom’s new feature. On this site, there are many deals for the family and FREE 2-day shipping is included for a limited time. My diaper deals go like this ~

sign up for Amazon Mom & save 15%
save an additional 15% by using the Subscribe & Save feature (the item ordered is delivered on a regular basis, say every 2 months; unsubscribe as soon as the item is shipped with no penalty)
often I have another coupon code for another 15% or even 20% off.
then I pay the balance using as many Swagbuck dollars as possible!

:: right now I’m in a season of coupon clipping and so I receive updates from two sites that offer online coupons to print for local stores and also many other deals ~ Saving Naturally for organic or health foods & products, and then Money Saving Mom. Both sites are run by godly Christian women who I had the privilege of meeting and talking with last month. I highly recommend them!

:: I’ve also recently discovered Walmart’s ALL YOU magazine which offers tons of coupons (at least $70 worth in each issue) on groceries, toiletries, etc. I only take time to scan for the coupons, but the articles seem helpful as well. Check it out at Walmart & if you like it, here’s a super deal on a subscription. Using coupons & local drugstore offers, I usually buy our toiletries for next to nothing or receive them for free.

:: check out restaurant.com for dining out deals in your area. Right now, they are offering up to 80% off certain gift certificates. A few weeks ago, I bought a $25 certificate for $2.00 and enjoyed a night out sampling Indian food with friends…fun!

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I should mention that all of this evolved slowly and it’s a process I enjoy. It does take time (though I’ve figured out ways to cut down on that!), and it should be worth it in your book. If I wasn’t clothing & feeding young children still or if for another reason this just didn’t fit life now, then it wouldn’t be a priority.

All that said, it IS a lot of fun!

thankful for Advent

2010-11-25T10:11:00.002-05:00

A BLESSED THANKSGIVING to all who celebrate today...
this day of remembrance naturally lends to the upcoming celebration of Advent,
when we give THANKS for the coming of our Messiah, Jesus.

The season of Advent is a joyous occassion for the family! Advent is a time of anticipation, of longing and of waiting for the birth of the Messiah, Christ who came to earth for us. Celebrated the weeks leading up to Christmas Day, Advent this year officially begins on Sunday, November 28th.

An Advent calendar is a special way to mark this passing of time and can be a practical tool to teach little ones (and big ones!) about the Christmas story and the true 'reason for the season'. This calendar usually counts down the 24 days before December 25th, but can be adjusted by a day to begin December 1st if wanted.

Last year I chose a simple method to celebrate our family traditions, and to prioritize the many ideas of how to influence our children with the meaning of Christmas ~ a calendar of envelopes! Each morning from December 1st, at our devotional time we opened one envelope that first focused on giving or sharing, and then sometimes on an activity or craft to be completed that day. I opted for mostly quick & easy ideas and other days had more time or effort required. Practical and fun, this idea is easy to duplicate.....

For complete instructions & ideas, hop on over to Frugal Granola....Michele has graciously allowed me to share in her Simple Living series. Join me?

to lighten your day

2010-11-23T09:02:00.001-05:00

Full of holiday preparing or rushing?

Need a smile for the day, before taking off full speed?

Look no further than a few pics from our laundry room; where my husband thought that a little boy would enjoy hanging out.

Rest assured that he was never in any danger of falling out.

At least I don’t think so. I learned of the event while downloading pictures from the camera.

So, are you smiling yet?

cultural celebrations :: a visitor from Germany

2010-11-18T10:11:00.001-05:00

Our geography curriculum continues to be such an adventure as we make our way through Europe! Famous people and places, interesting facts & information, excellent literature to read….I am pleased with this choice. Winter Promise’s Children Around the World delivers big time. While the curriculum provides for a weekly celebration of each country studied, we choose the ones of interest and which fit our schedule.

So when our study of Germany perfectly coincided with a long-awaited visit from my uncle, who has lived in this country over 20 years, the children and I were ecstatic! We practiced Guten Tags, thought through a few question to ask, and thoroughly enjoyed our time. I wasn’t about to attempt serving German food to a live person from the country, so simple conversation & American fare was the agenda for the evening!

Too busy wrapped up in conversation to tackle pictures of any food….

Several days later however, we did whip up a quick recipe for Blitzkuchen, a German spice cake. SO simple, very light in comparison to American coffee cakes and now declared to be our favorite ‘tea cake’. Yes, of course I’ll leave the recipe!

German Blitzkuchen

1/2 stick butter

1 egg

2/3 cup milk

1-1/2 cups flour

1/2 cup sugar

2 tsp. baking powder

1/4 teaspoon ground cloves

1/2 teaspoon cinnamon

1/4 tsp. nutmeg

pinch of salt

In a bowl, beat the butter, egg and milk together. Sift all the other ingredients together into the bowl and beat until smooth. Pour into an 8” square greased pan. On the top, drop bits of butter and sprinkle with a little more sugar and cinnamon. Bake at 375 degrees for 25-30 minutes.

And then, what’s a study on Germany without some sausage and pretzels, right!?

thanksgiving book bag for the family

2010-11-16T08:01:00.003-05:00

For the little ones in your home or life ~

Give Thanks to the Lord :: told from the viewpoint of a young member of the family celebrating joys of all kinds

Thank You for Thanksgiving :: the fun rhyming text is great, also a wonderful way to tie together the holiday with the approach of Advent as the book emphasizes being grateful for the gift of Christ.

The Thanksgiving Bowl :: fun for preschoolers as well ~ travel throughout the year with this ‘lost’ bowl of grandma’s and see where it lands in the end!

Mary’s First Thanksgiving :: an inspirational story of gratefulness from a young Pilgrim girl’s talks with her father.

For the family or older children ~

An Old-Fashioned Thanksgiving :: the March sisters live on! Great family read-aloud or for older children.

The Legend of Squanto :: a Focus on the Family radio theatre CD that is excellent! A story of triumph over tragedy that offers more of the Thanksgiving story. We’re on our third year of listening to this audio!

Three Young Pilgrims :: just fine for younger children as well, this book details with lots of illustrations & beautiful map work the journey of Pilgrim children

Thanksgiving, A Time to Remember :: a family keepsake and wonderful gift idea! Historical, detailing the quest of the Pilgrims and other facts. Pages in the back to record your family’s gratefulness through the years and a CD of instrumental music make this book one to own, excellent!

reality check and over-the-top birthday fun

2010-11-11T16:35:00.001-05:00

First, the not-so-good news ::

Thanksgiving is in two weeks, I’m hosting extended family, and there is little to no planning done for this event (except that I have managed to earn two free turkeys at local grocery stores). Serving them frozen would not be a good idea, you think? The fact that my family plans to visit is causing the children’s excitement to rapidly rise to record levels. whew.

But their Mama needs a serious reality check and will be breaking out some plans this weekend! I think I can, I think I can…

On to better news! Yesterday, we celebrated my birthday :: so refreshing with the request for “just a little quiet” honored in grand ways. My family gifted me with an outing for the afternoon to be pampered, then to shop alone, and then dinner with simply my husband and I. Truly over-the-top and leaving me feeling grateful and quite full; the children were so thrilled for me (or maybe they were just happy for a day off school? :) and participated fully in this surprise of a gift. Saying thank you doesn’t seem enough…

And on my return, cards and gifts were opened and the day closed.

I am blessed; not only yesterday…everyday.

:: an older couple in our church blesses me with these hand-delivered, homemade oatmeal lace cookies (dipped into chocolate) every year; I am slightly embarrassed to admit that because I’m a wee reluctant to share these treats, they have begun including different cookies for the rest of the family. I do give out small bites here and there…

:: a large box filled with deliciousness from Stonewall Kitchen arrived at our doorstep! These goodies the whole family will enjoy! :)

:: and I wasted no time in spending birthday money gifts on fresh crafting supplies I’ve been eyeing for a while. My rather large collection of scrapbooking and paper crafting supplies is the result of about 13 yrs of birthdays (with a few Christmases thrown in as well). The children and I spent our free time today trying out the various new ‘toys’!

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I record this all here so that my heart will remember….

so that I will always count myself filled to the brim with blessings!

in the book bag

2010-11-09T08:12:00.002-05:00

Being a lover of books and all things wordy, even I do believe that my 'book bag' so to speak is rather full these days. The challenge is to read one book at a time, rather than my current method of placing nearly all of them in various corners of our home (or of the car) for when I have just a minute to read. Hmmm...must think on this. It's helpful that I read quickly, but these will take me into the new year!

For now, let me introduce the current book bag (minus the crafting books. ahem.) ::

Holy Habits: A Woman's Guide to Intentional Living
~ the women of our church are reading through this; the author's focus is on examining the nature of God through His various names which informs how we are to live intentionally. Simplistic, practical and yet profound in its reminders!

Grace Is For Sinners
~ After meeting this author recently, her journey of redemption peaked my interest (and I wanted to support a self-published author). This one just came in and only a few chapters have been read, so much more to go! Serena has a website of the same title with more of her story.

Don't Waste Your Life
~ all of this talk of living intentionally caused me to download the free audio version of this title (only available for November). When I can recover my iPod from my children's hands, then I'll get to listening. I appreciate all things John Piper!

The Spirit of Food: 34 Writers on Feasting and Fasting toward God
~ oh, it just seems interesting! On its way from Amazon....not much to report just yet.

Treasuring God in Our Traditions
~ did I mention I like the Pipers? John's wife, Noel, writes so eloquently on the need to infuse our yearly celebrations with the presence of God at work so that the next generation may know Him. So. So. Good. A free download of the book is available at the Piper's website.

One Thousand Gifts: A Dare to Live Fully Right Where You Are
~ this one hasn't been released yet! The author, who I also had the pleasure of meeting, generously gifted an e-version to conference attendees...woohoo! Refreshing, challenging and full of over-the-top encouragement :: words for the soul.

Tell Your Time (not pictured)
~ the e-book is transformative! Seriously. I'm a fairly organized person who has read a few time management books in the past...yet, there was much to glean from this quick read of a book (it's only 30 pages). The author, yes...I again had the opportunity to meet her, deals with the internal before the external when considering how we spend our time. She asks questions such as 'what do you want to be remembered for? what kind of person would you like to be?' as part of the process. This time management approach deals with who you are (or desire to be) before attempting to even look at how to plot your time. I cannot recommend this highly enough, it's excellent!

Oh, good reads in store!

on being perfect :: final thoughts

2010-11-03T10:53:00.001-04:00

{part one & part two here; just some thoughts after hearing an impactful speech}

I have no words that will release you into never struggling again with perfectionism.

This post may even disappoint and bring on more questions than answers.

I can however, point towards a few directions that caused a change of mentality and attitude :: that radically rocked this walk with a holy God.

Early in our marriage, we came across a book just released whose title pulled the reader in. My husband read chapters and quickly attempted to peak my interest as well. I was not hooked. In the Grip of Grace? Really? Through my mind came the usual and often heard responses to that word grace ::

“Oh, grace is wimpy isn’t it? It’s for those who are trying to get away with sin, who want God to cover-up their mistakes with quick forgiveness. He’s a holy God! He has standards! Grace is only a way out….”

What a serious lack of understanding.

In the first few pages of this book (yes, I did finally concede to reading) the author tells the story of several brothers who have failed their father by running away and finding themselves living among people & ways unlike their homeland. Each one’s response to their wrongdoing is described as only Max Lucado can do. One gives up and becomes like the rest, believing a way back to the father is impossible. Another is so angry at this brother and chooses to carefully watch & record the wrong being done (therefore ignoring his own misdeeds). And one son does return when the messenger comes with an announcement that the father is awaiting them all.

But is was the fourth son that caused me to stop flipping pages and read this story multiple times. One son…he couldn’t accept a way back to the father when the messenger arrived. Simply return after what he had done?

Just go with this messenger?

Instead, this son chooses to try and work his way back into favor. Instead of accepting the ride home, he tries to build a new way back home. It was impossible, the journey too long. And yet, he works and works and works…

Unable to accept that the way home was to ride the messenger’s back, this son slaves away with little success that he cannot see will never work; he is so proud of the accomplishment that is destined to fail. He was unable to accept a father who was granting him favor, a way to himself, that the son had not earned.

He couldn’t accept grace.

I could relate to this son and the striving; the cringing inside when I failed and the attempt to ‘not ever do that again’, whatever THAT was. The attempt of perfectionism block’s ones view. First, there is the pride issue and the belief that ‘all is well when I do well—and I really haven’t done much wrong’, which is false at best. Then, when there is inevitable failure or mistakes, perfectionism breeds a condemning attitude : ‘What was I thinking? How could I have been so…(fill in the blank)?’ So efforts are doubled up, reinforcements put in place :: legalism established or restored.

What a vicious cycle that kills the spirit! Oh, we need grace.

What is this grace all about?

I offer simple thoughts, not great theology. Grace is what makes up the difference. It is the undeserved favor of God that will ‘fill in the blanks’ when we come up short. And we always will. We are responsible to do our part, but God already knows that our very best, even if it could be perfect all of the time, will always fall short to what is needed. This could be a depressing thought, except for His grace (Eph 2: 8-9).

Because grace makes up the difference. God already provided a way for those of us who tend to lean towards the striving, the gaining of success by our efforts alone, the thinking we may actually have it all together. Grace keeps me from being caught up in who I am supposed to be and accepting of who I am—and who God is through me (I Cor 15:10).

As mothers, wives, as women on this journey…we need grace. Not only for ourselves, but also for those who follow.

Lord, grant us understanding.

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If you or anyone else battles with this concept of grace as I did, I highly recommend ~

The book of Romans :: by far the best explanation of this often misunderstood concept of grace. Read it front to back, over & over, asking the Lord to illuminate the truths within the words. He will.

The Grip of Grace by Max Lucado :: an extension of understanding Romans in simple, everyday language. Excellent!

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the whole series:

part one: a reformed perfectionist

part two: perfectionism is insecurity. insecurity is fear.

final thoughts: in the grip of grace

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from our days

2010-11-01T13:58:00.001-04:00

{we’ll continue sharing around perfectionism & grace tomorrow :: just a few shots from our family that I am grateful for today…}

Gratitude from our days as a family ::

:: for this 4 month old’s focus

:: for siblings willing to read together

:: and play together

:: for creativity!

:: for a little girl growing in reading skills

:: for new ways to organize!

:: for the sights & smells of baking in the kitchen

For all this, I give thanks! Participating in A Holy Experience’s Multitude Mondays.

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on being perfect :: part two

2010-10-29T05:00:00.000-04:00

{part one here :: writing in response to thoughts shared at the Relevant conference}

Earlier this year I read Beth Moore’s newest book, So Long, Insecurity and found one sentence to be a stopper :: one that will stay in my mind for a long time.

“Perfectionism is insecurity in an art form.” Beth writes that statement in such eloquent terms.

A form of art :: where the individual has mastered the striving so well that the results almost seem beautiful, picturesque even and therefore soliciting the adoration of others. Which of course feeds the cycle of perfectionism/insecurity even more.

In the words of this quote lies the foundation for the ferocious battle of trying to keep it all together all of the time.

FEAR. A fear that drains the color from life.

Insecurity is the desperate fear that we won’t be accepted, applauded, or approved of by whichever group is the focus of our attentions. So we try harder and do better at keeping up appearances while allowing very little access into the real tender part of us that wonders how much will be enough.

Perfectionism is tricky, a slippery slope indeed. In my case, my God-given personality is hard-wired for being detailed, orderly and for pursuing excellence. It’s not a stress factor, just simply the way I am. Think of Moses and of the necessary focus needed to fully write out God’s law exactly as He gave it :: yep, that’s me. There is nothing wrong with this! Let me say that again.

Pursuing excellence is not the problem :: I was born this way with the intention by God that it be used for good and for His glory. So were you, whatever the personality.

This gift from God becomes a hindrance to me when my strength stretches out too far and becomes my weakness. When the focus of my attention is others and not God’s glory :: when the approval of God’s favor upon me is based on performance and ‘excellent’ behavior…well, the good gift is misused and misunderstood.

Strengths overextended become weaknesses. But there is a way out of this cycle, this messy path.

An understanding and acceptance of GRACE :: abundant, lavish grace :: that restores all of the color.

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the whole series:

part one: a reformed perfectionist

part two: perfectionism is insecurity. insecurity is fear.

final thoughts: in the grip of grace

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on being perfect :: part one

2010-10-27T06:00:00.000-04:00

I’m a reformed perfectionist.

You know, the Type A first-born sort of thing. But much bigger in my case. This is a result of a combination of factors from personality (God-given!) to home life growing up. Childhood for me was full of an abundance of rules and structure, but I don’t necessarily see all of this as completely out of line.

My mother I’m convinced is the original FlyLady and could have made some money in her day. Once-a-month cooking or freezing food ahead of time? Yep, she missed publicizing that one too as this was a norm in our household long before the books & press. You see what I mean…we were that kind of family and I was that kind of kid.

So, what then is the big deal? Is the desire for keeping surroundings uncluttered or organized an issue?

Being ultra-detailed and a planner a problem?

Well, it can be…

At the Relevant Conference last weekend, Ann Voskamp (probably my favorite modern day writer), spoke some profound words that has me pondering and thinking much.

“We do not achieve our identity in Christ, we receive it.” Her words that caused my pen to pause and my heart to beat loudly as I recalled times past :: of the chains that hindered freedom.

The former problem of perfectionism in my life is wrapped up in those few words. Somehow the truth became twisted as I was caught in the trap of believing that if all was in order (and if I could keep it this way nearly all of the time), then the approval of man and God was in the bag.

Big. Fat. Lie. And yet, this way of thinking dominated my life for years. Achieving and not receiving, only to be left soul-tired and weary. This pattern of thought bears little, or let me be bold and say NO fruit.

So how did I unwind and unravel this mindset?

I didn’t. But I did have a head-on-collision with GRACE…

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the whole series:

part one: a reformed perfectionist

part two: perfectionism is insecurity. insecurity is fear.

final thoughts: in the grip of grace

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kindred spirits

2010-10-26T06:45:00.001-04:00

I've been away before, alone at times to reflect and soak up the quiet. Home life is full of noise, good sounds of course, but I crave a piece of quiet every now and then...

...but this time, the yearly pilgrimage away from the home front led to a strong desire to connect, to meet with women of like-minded vision and purpose. To not be considered odd.

And so, I stole away to the Relevant Conference last weekend. A carved out place and space of time for women who write :: who pour their hearts out to a screen, click, and pray that the message has meaning, brings hope, or somehow stirs the soul.

My words are often timid ones, shared with shakiness of spirit :: writers understand this fragile nature of our pen to paper {or fingers to keyboard} experiences. And in the space of forty-eight short long hours, I found grace among sisters in Christ who write.

Kindred spirits who connected with the shakiness and yet the desire to shape an audience's mind and heart with words. The only response is to give thanks to the unseen One who knew the felt need for sisterhood among authors, speakers, and yes...bloggers.

I am grateful.

I am changed.

Wisdom graciously shared from the speakers ::

"You can't give away what you don't have in your heart. It's the living of life, not the writing of life that means something. Crafting a message that will change hearts includes words of truth plus a life of integrity."

Sally Clarkson, Whole Heart Ministries

"There's a difference between being encouraging vs. painting a picture on our blogs of a life that doesn't really exist. It's too easy to be filled by the affirmation of others (in comments & such) instead of by the Lord. Be authentic, having a deep sense of littleness."

Angie Smith, Bring the Rain

"We don't always get to pick our story, but we can all show God through it."

Serena Woods, Grace is for Sinners

"We do not achieve our identity in Christ, we receive our identity in Him. We serve with our writing, our blogs. Give to God the deepest parts of yourself and share in writing pieces of what God has done :: yet always write for an audience of one, Him alone."

Ann Voskamp, A Holy Experience

photo from conference: Dayspring's wooden book crops

in the stillness

2010-10-20T11:48:00.001-04:00

The desire for quiet, and even the planning for such times, does not always match up to how life will unfold :)

I say this with a smile as life in the last week offered more opportunities for me to be ‘in the midst’ instead of away from it all for a little. Which is of course a perfect set-up to see how I would respond! Ahem. Oh, it’s all good and this weekend is yet another time with pockets away for reflection & refreshment.

So, I continue to be still in this space…

May your week unfold with grace. May you see the gifts of His hand all around you, even ‘in the midst’.

Blessings.

a call to quiet

2010-10-07T06:30:00.000-04:00

in the last week or so, I’ve sensed a need to still myself before the Lord to hear :: to hear more of Him.

nothing is wrong, life is moving along well and we are blessed with good times and good health.

and still, I hear Him calling me…

…asking me to release as much as possible some of the ‘noise’ (even the good of life can be too loud when listening for the Savior’s voice). So, I am quieting activities that can pause for a moment, preparing the home for my short absences in the next week and scheduling a few pockets of time to steal away.

To hear the One and Only, the lover of my soul,

this Jesus who means so very much to me.

{so I pause in this space for a short break, perhaps a week? maybe more, to still myself.

Be well friends, and I’ll return soon}

cultural celebrations :: A Spanish fiesta!

2010-10-06T06:46:00.000-04:00

Okay yes, yes…I already know that all of the foods pictured above are not Spanish or having anything to do with Spain or even Mexico (though we’re not to the Americas for a while). However, there is a long standing tradition in Spain, the focus of our studies recently along with Portugal, to enjoy food called tapas.

And oh, how we really like that idea! Appetizers of any variety (from our understanding, nearly anything can be tapas), served on small plates and enjoyed with great conversation. Sounds like a meal plan to me!

Our menu ::

crackers & vegan ‘cream cheese’ topped with sweet pepper jelly

a layered bean dip w/tortilla chips

french bread pan-fried in olive oil and topped with bruschetta (our recipe is at the bottom of this post)

cocktail shrimp (a little bit found in the back of the freezer! :)

maple chicken drumsticks

Simple decor included a red tablecloth and leftover decorations from our twelve-year old’s birthday party three years ago (yes, we seem to keep stuff like this). Though we had intended to add some Spanish or flamenco music in the background, I think we were more focused on the food than dinner music! A fun evening indeed….

A few tidbits ::

did you hear about the bullfight weeks ago in Spain that ended up with a bull in the stands!? fortunately there were no fatalities & only minor injuries.

we took a look at the Spanish galleons, huge ships used by explorers and tradesmen in the past

and don’t forget the benefit of touring the world via the virtual globe Google Earth :: we’ve enjoyed visiting the landscape and famous places of each country

gratitude rises above

2010-10-05T06:00:00.000-04:00

sometimes I am really weary at the end of a day…

…at times motherhood, keeping a home, and the full life we have leaves me exhausted.

there are days it’s tempting to think this phase of life with little ones will go on forever…

and then I download pictures from my camera and gratitude for these days (though tiring at times) wells up in my heart. I know the time is fleeting, and scenes like these will soon be only memories :: and so I give thanks…

for his wonder of the outdoor world

a little girl learning new sporting skills

and gaming skills

for his intensity :)

for toys strewn about the yard

for diapers that need changing and baby—okay toddler—legs

for a doting auntie and uncle!

for sacked out little ones in the car

and for creative messes that need to be cleaned up…

:::

For all of this Lord, I am grateful. One can lose sight and vision in the day-to-day of a home full of activity, noise! and the many needs of the little people around me. I pray that You restore my sight and cause me to really see from heaven’s perspective. Remind me of the eternal nature of what is happening in our home.

Let me see You at work….

Amen!

happy birthday to the Papa

2010-10-04T05:55:00.000-04:00

He frowns because of the sun…otherwise, this husband of mine is a really friendly man! :)

happy birthday to the Dad and Papa in our home! How extremely blessed we are for his presence, his leadership & love, his steadfastness (the man is a solid rock!). We appreciate you so very much and are grateful for all of who you are to us….

and so we celebrate in style today…happy, happy birthday!

after the rains

2010-10-01T09:18:00.001-04:00

Our little area of the state received a downpour yesterday :: in a matter of hours there was significant flooding that caused schools to release children earlier in the day, evening activities to be cancelled.

Oh, the rain! A part of nature’s course :: often anticipated and sometimes dreaded.

Yet we need the rains to come…

Rains in our lives as well are needed. Can we ever really embrace this truth? That consistently bright sunny days are not the best for us—eventually the air becomes too dry, then parched.

We need the rain. In its many forms rains come as an unwelcome trial, a disappointment, a call to even greater Sabbath rest, a challenge from within or from without :: the clouds become a little darker and full and…

the rains come.

The rain is for our growth, for our good though we’ve been tricked into believing that we must resist it.

Temptation is to be resisted. Not growth.

And the rain experiences of life will cause us to be nourished if we allow the process to fully come around. God is faithful and will not disappoint, even if we shake our fist at the rain. Because sometimes, it’s just hard not to.

Then afterwards…oh, the promise of afterwards! The sun peeks out from behind trees and clouds…

And shines again!

enjoy a lovely weekend…..

autumn baking

2010-09-30T09:43:00.001-04:00

With older girls and a Mama who all love cooking and baking…well, the kitchen is a busy place!

The sights and smells of breads, cookies, muffins and the like fill our senses and our bellies…

…it’s Autumn alright. And it’s good.

cultural celebrations :: an Irish festival

2010-09-29T08:28:00.001-04:00

We should have been wearing a bit o’ green as well, right?

The celebration of Ireland in our school studies included some good foods :: Irish soda bread (top picture, and we all decided the recipe is not a keeper :), good ole Irish stew with lots of potatoes (a staple in Ireland past and present) and apple cake! Celtic music played in the background and after dinner we of course took in a bit of Riverdance via video.

My husband took the opportunity to tell the younger children of the Riverdance frenzy that took place in our home about nine years ago :: I can’t deny that it was all somewhat obsessive. We even went to see the tour, which capped a long season of listening to the soundtrack, watching video clips and trying our own feet at fast-paced leg work (um, I am not good at Irish step dancing!). Oh well!

A few sources used in our schooling ::

an interactive tour of the Irish Potato Famine of the 19th century

Ireland hosts the most unhygienic tourist attraction in the world, the Blarney Stone! who wants to hang upside down to kiss a stone!? The children found this hilarious.

this book found in our local library is short, full of pictures and helpful to understand the culture.

Well, top of the morning to you! (a phrase thought to originate in Ireland, but actually it’s from New Zealand!)

little boys

2010-09-28T06:28:00.000-04:00

The smallest ones around here are growing up!….

son number two at 13 months

grandson number one at 2 months

when love spills over

2010-09-24T14:14:00.001-04:00

I really do appreciate ‘just because’ flowers.

The things is, I’m not really the please-send-me-flowers type of gal (there’s nothing wrong with this of course, it’s just not me). So when my best friend and partner, this husband of mine, sends me flowers…I know he knows that this time…

this time, the surprise of doorbell-ringing, middle of schooling, children-‘woohoo’ing, Mama-crying, breath-taking flower delivery is so, so much welcomed.

Thank you hon! I am blessed by you…

needed reminders

2010-09-22T09:42:00.000-04:00

Quotes worth remembering today...sharing with you ~
(a repost from the archives)

On the inside of my kitchen cabinets, I often place various quotes that inspire. Right now:

"Things which matter the most

must never be at the mercy

of things which matter the least." Goethe

"Though I am always in haste,

I am never in a hurry,

because I never undertake more work

than I can go through with calmness of spirit." John Wesley

Balance is when someone ~
senses a call on his life and says yes even when he feels unqualified

says no to something he's not called to, even though he might disappoint others

guards and protects her time with the Lord

refuses to allow food to become an idol

gives himself the gift of exercising several times per week

refuses to succumb to a busied, harried lifestyle

gives herself (and her children) enough time to get out the door

pushes himself beyond what's comfortable for the purpose of growth

is teachable and flexible

practices self-control

(from Focus on the Family magazine, March 2007)

pen to paper :: from the heart

2010-09-17T08:23:00.001-04:00

I am humbled and quite thrilled to share the release of a new book! Thrilled because of the purpose of this project, a gathering of authors who write for charity to benefit the sickest of children. Humbled because a few words I’ve penned (well, typed) are included in the book…an honor indeed.

From the Heart, A Collection of Stories and Poems from the Front Lines of Parenting tracks some of the funniest, the hardest and the most phenomenal moments of this journey called parenting. A collaborative effort of many authors, all proceeds from the sale will go to support children’s hospitals and St. Jude’s Children’s Research Center.

Beth Davis, the editor and also founder of the organization Write for Charity, had a desire to make a difference in the lives of children after learning that her youngest daughter needed surgery. The idea of writing a book for charity was born and the search for authors began in earnest through magazines, the blogsphere and writer’s groups around the country—through several months and over 300 submissions later, From the Heart was born.

Currently this collection of stories and poems is only available for sale through the organization’s website in order to control costs and donate more to charity :: after October, this release of close to one hundred different stories sharing perspectives on parenting, will be available through other venues such as Amazon and bookstores.

*****

My heart has always been for the needs of the youngest among us, my own children and those who need an advocate. It’s my life’s work really and I’ll try to be a voice in whichever way possible. To have some words included in a project that echoes this vision is humbling, an honor and a small way to remind others of the little ones around them. I am eagerly awaiting my copy as parenting encouragement is needed & appreciated by this Mama!

Feel free to share the word by grabbing a button :: find the list of authors here.

All contributors (graphics, editors) and authors have donated their time and work :: proceeds, outside of printing costs, are all to be donated.

oh, September…

2010-09-16T07:54:00.001-04:00

Right about this time each year I am tempted to become overwhelmed by the transition from summer schedules to fall routines. Each week brings a new ‘we start _______ today!’ Bible club, homeschool classes, field hockey, and music lessons are becoming a part of weekly life. It’s not that our schedule is too full, far from it. We find ourselves saying ‘NO’ to much more than the actual ‘yes’ activities. And I am loving the fact that we are home most evenings.

But it all begins at the same time! With the newness brings paperwork to fill out, backpacks to dig out of closets and prepare for class, etc. ETC!

When I find my emotions tempted to spin wildly like a washing machine, I pause for a gratitude check and reflection. Today I think of our end of summer, say good-bye to it, and give thanks ::

for a gathering of Moms, Dads, lots of kids & great food

weekly date nights with my husband (though this continues, yeah!)

for an outdoor worship service & fellowship time with our church family

a fun & filling shrimp boil with other families :: laughing at the fact that we seriously overestimated the amount of food needed! taking home great memories and munchies

our annual back-to-school campout (in our basement) with a near-by cousin

welcoming the end of the grass-growing season!

for backyard enjoyment, just sitting to read, lie in the shade or watch the stars at night

Ah, yes. That’s much better. Now I’m ready to welcome all that our new routines bring….

truth for this day

2010-09-13T06:45:00.000-04:00

“Consider what God has done: Who can straighten what He has made crooked? (Eccl. 7:13)

“God often seems to place His children in places of deep difficulty, leading them into a corner from which there is no escape. He creates situations that human judgment, even if consulted, would never allow. Yet the cloudiness of the circumstance itself is used by Him to guide us to the other side. Perhaps this is where you find yourself even now. Your situation is filled with uncertainty and is very serious but it is perfectly right. The reason behind it will more than justify Him who brought you here, for it is a platform from which God will display His almighty grace and power. He not only will deliver you but in doing so will impart a lesson that you will never forget. And in days to come you will return to the truth of it through singing. You will be unable to ever thank God enough for doing exactly what He has done.” from Streams in the Desert devotional

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This God, my God…will walk me through any storm and bring me safely to the other side.

Praise His holy name.

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cultural celebrations :: an English tea

2010-09-10T06:00:00.001-04:00

The study of the United Kingdom of Great Britain (did you know this is the official name?) ended with a grand tea party as we make our way through the countries of Europe! My, my…I do need to brush up on my geography and world history a bit; though I didn’t admit this fact to the girls, I think they caught on?

Naturally the girls (big & little) were all quite excited about this celebration as part of our curriculum; and the little boys in the house don’t know to not be thrilled about such a prim & proper event. Dad on the other hand? Well, he was a good sport until one of his children asked if we should all try to speak in a British accent…the man does have limitations! Overall, it was a grand time.

Our menu ::

lemon poppy seed muffins with lemon glaze

sweet scones (that turned out a bit flat!) with homemade peach jam

maple ham & cucumber sandwiches

spinach & cheese cups

and lots of English tea!

A few resources that we used through this study ~ famous people, events or places ::

design an English garden (which can be printed out)

read a Beatrix Potter story at this site or check a book out of the library

a few of us will be listening to this audio version of Charles Dickens’ A Christmas Carol

our current read-aloud is about George Mueller, a great man of faith and courage; this version is great for young children as well

this girl…

2010-09-08T15:39:00.001-04:00

{she only wishes the phone belonged to her!}

….today is TWELVE.

And yes, I reluctantly release her into the next year of her life :: praising God for the wonderful & exciting years we’ve enjoyed so far.

twelve.

I simply can’t believe it. The pregnancy with her was my hardest, uncontrolled sickness that landed me in the hospital several occasions and caused an 18 pound weight loss in just under ten weeks. Doctors knew little and I suffered much; my girl and I joke today about how maybe this crazy pregnancy was a ‘heads up’ for days to come? Just a joke.

She is witty, intelligent, and motivated. I appreciate her serious and yet tenderhearted nature. She has a passion to learn, to DO, and to BE; being a wife & mother and ‘having my own house’ are part of her talk of the future—I’m sure it may all come together much as she is planning it! :)

We love her dearly and celebrate once again with joy her arrival into our lives.

Happy Birthday, Sweetie!

cultural celebrations :: the family

2010-09-01T06:00:00.000-04:00

One of the aspects that completely sold me on our new geography curriculum this year is the fact that the schedule includes plans to celebrate on a regular basis the countries studied! Should we choose (and we probably will not do them all), each week we’ll gather together to experience the food, customs, games, etc. of a particular region of the world. Winter Promise calls this a ‘cultural celebration’ :: I love it!

The first one was to pause and celebrate our family. Yes, the curriculum called for us to choose our favorite family meal, games, memories and such to be the focus; the children were quite excited. But, deciding on our favorite food was not simple at all and I finally allowed one child to make the final decision.

I guess we are fairly globally-minded already because chicken curry over rice turned up as the choice :) What a fun time of ‘remembering when’ as we recounted the years gone by and enjoyed some favorite games!

Pictures of the table setting or of the people might have been appropriate, right? That didn’t happen. Hmm…it’s all about the food. Oh, well. I will leave you with the recipe used :: maybe it will find it’s way to your family’s table!

Basic Meat Curry (with chop salad)

Saute in deep skillet:

2 T oil

sweet onion, chopped (as much as you’d like)

2 tsp minced garlic

Blend in a small bowl:

2 T lemon juice

2-4 tsp curry powder (depending on taste desired)

Stir curry mixture into sauteed onions and fry lightly 2-3 minutes.

Add:

1-1/2 lb cubed chicken breast (or beef, fish :: for a veggie version try white or black beans)

Stir briefly to coat meat with spices.

Add:

1 cup tomato juice

1 tsp salt

1 cup broth

Bring to boil, cover and simmer 1 hour. Thicken slightly with flour before serving, if desired. Serve over hot rice with chop salad (recipe below), coconut, pumpkin or sunflower seeds, peanuts or raisins. Freezes well. Serves about 4-6.

Chop Salad

Chop into bite size pieces and combine in a bowl:

3 peppers: red, orange & yellow (if I have this, it gets put in. if not, moving on…)

1 long cucumber

3 green onions

1 pkg. grape tomatoes

Mix dressing and pour over all:

3 TBsp vinegar

1 tsp sugar

1/2 tsp salt

dash of pepper

Stir well and chill several hours.

school days again!

2010-08-26T06:00:00.000-04:00

Our homeschool year is underway, starting with 1/2 days in August, slowly adding subjects and we’re about to head full scale next week. Exciting days, the first days of schooling. New supplies, fresh curriculum choices, a Mama full of ideas for the year, children thrilled with the plans ~ we’re experiencing it all and soaking it in (because there will be days we will not all be so happy, but let’s not focus on that right now okay? :)

Each year we prayerfully consider the focus and direction for each child, including also what God is speaking to us as a whole family. Homeschooling (and in general all parenting regardless of school choice) takes this kind of discernment ~ to step back and evaluate where you’re headed and how to get there.

Last spring several things happened that caused us as parents to pause and take notice:: our kiddos as a group were becoming captivated by one main subject ~ the world we live in. Books on the topic were read, maps were being drawn, a talking globe received as a present was played with quite often (so often it got a bit annoying at times!), and questions were asked by a certain almost 12-yr old which led to some great conversations about people groups, resources available to those people, missionaries, etc.

So we had a ‘aha’ moment when thinking through the plans for this year ~ let’s travel the world! Alright, not literally, but through our year :: let’s learn more about the people of the world, the customs & culture of various countries, the music, language, weather and similarities or differences compared to our own. To say that I was pumped about the idea is an understatement. And so, I decided to write our own curriculum :: hurray!

NOT.

After only about a few days of research last May, it became apparent that this was not the season to take on such a task. We were and still are in transition as a family and I had just written some of last year’s curriculum ~ a break was definitely in order. Sooo….the hunt for what we would use became the focus and we landed on a wonderful, wonderful choice :: Winter Promise’s Children Around the World. Let me tell you, this could not be a better fit!

Having never used a boxed curriculum before, I was concerned if this would flow with my style of teaching, a very odd mix of Charlotte Mason likeness, unschooling (yes, I’m admitting to this!) and some classical ed thrown in for good measure, so weird I know. While we have firm & even ‘high’ academic goals, our approach is much different & more relaxed than that of conventional schooling since we’re focusing on other aspects of our children as well :: so far, it’s working beautifully.

However, my qualms are settled about an all-in-one curriculum and I am very appreciative of the fact that everything is set up for me including lessons plans for both girls and age-appropriate assignments :: yes! We’ve added math and a little extra language/grammar focus, that’s it. All else will be through this geography curriculum.

We are having SO much fun already! Being from a Christian perspective, Children Around the World also focuses on missionary work past and present, how to specifically pray for areas of our world and much more. All of the books (lots of great books!) and materials (journals, maps, worksheets, etc.) were included :: I am grateful indeed.

It’s going to be a fabulous year! I’ll be sure to write more….

on hospitality

2010-08-18T16:13:00.002-04:00

I am so spoiled here at my Mom and Dad's home! I just may extend our stay....

Being in a place where I'm currently experiencing the hospitality of others has me pondering this subject :: actually, I've been thinking on it for a few weeks now and reminding myself of those whose open heart & open home have blessed and marked me for life.

While many have inspired me through the years, I've been privileged to know two women who lived and breathed the essence of hospitality. They've never met and never will, and yet their lives were so familiar. Each had a husband with a primary call to ministry in their local church, four children and were homeschoolers. Our dear friend Annette lived outside of Chicago and we visited as time allowed and our friend Colleen lived around the corner when we made our home in Connecticut. Two women, different lives :: one strong commitment to open their homes.

They taught me ~

:: to not be intimidated by the space I have or don't. Both Annette and Colleen had very small homes...very. With just enough room (or in one case not quite enough) for their own families, there wasn't much extra space. And yet, others who visited didn't seem to mind this, people literally flocked to their homes. One cookie exchange at Colleen's was standing room only if you didn't count the women sitting up her staircase!; no one wanted the gathering in a different location though she offered. While they both desired more space, this did not become a focus of discontent. A valuable lesson.

:: to allow others into my life as well as into my home. This for me is the marker that distinguishes these two examples of gracious hospitality. Planned events or impromptu visits, time with these ladies didn't just mean learning more about how she decorated or where her furniture was purchased (though that is fun info at times!). They generously shared life and wanted to know about yours. The focus was on people, not things or simply the event at hand. At Annette's funeral in 2009, hundreds of people came to honor a woman who made them feel important, unique and made a space in her life for others. Hundreds. Colleen's hospitality to an older woman, consistently yet gently inviting the lady to share & be in her home, caused the woman (who had boarded up her back door) to join in a neighboorhood gathering and finally speak to people she had lived next to for 18 years!

:: to be hospitable to those in my home. Annette's kids were served breakfast in bed on occassion, just because. Colleen would bring tea in special cups to even her youngest child. Both served their husbands with flair and yet simplicity. Their families did not feel as though guests alone received attention, it was a part of the norm. I appreciate my parents who also stressed this lesson; to create an atmosphere where my children and husband are not jealous of those who visit our home!

The goal of course is not to become these women, though I deeply appreciate their examples. The focus is to be open to how God is asking me to share both my life and my home :: first to those who live with me, then to the body of Christ and beyond. And though we've been hospitable in various ways in the past or even in this past year (from large neighborhood gatherings to Bible studies or groups), I am asking Christ afresh how he would have us serve right now.

And trusting for the answer...

right now

2010-08-16T20:18:00.001-04:00

8:00 p.m. Monday eve

I’m supposed to be packing for a trip away for several days :: off to another big city to explore the sites, including days at my parent’s home where I plan to fully enjoy the fact that I don’t have to cook!

But, packing isn’t happening…willing my clothes (and the rest of the family’s) to simply just jump into bags. Wouldn’t that be nice?

Instead, I’m thinking about ~

:: purchasing an ice cream maker soon since there are so many issues with dairy in our home and the substitutes are a bit expensive. my girls have promised to be in charge; hmmm…we’ll see.

:: making a felt playhouse for the boys’ Christmas present~ this idea has me very excited at the moment, but really, that excitement needs to last several more weeks before I actually say ‘yes’!

:: I was thinking of making these orange cup cinnamon rolls for the first day of school, but we’ve already had that. So, maybe when we return, we’ll have them for the 11th day?

:: I’m reminding myself again of a healthy perspective on lamenting (versus complaining)

:: also reading again through the daily seven for household management ~ simple & good!

Okay, right now…I DO have to pack up a few items!! Especially the hat I’m knitting (as seen in the header) and the camera. All else? Well, I hope they find their way into our bags…..

domestic life

2010-08-10T08:45:00.001-04:00

domestic life is never boring!!

back to the produce….

happy birthday baby boy

2010-08-03T12:08:00.001-04:00

with a bit of reluctance, this Mama pauses today to declare that her baby is ONE. oh, my.

a year ago today….

….and yes, he has grown up!

happy birthday Jeremiah!

fiber bliss

2010-08-02T09:10:00.001-04:00

The end of last week found me with a bit of unexpected free time on my hands (I know, it’s a rare thing!) :: three of the children were busy with their grandfather doing various activities and were gone for the day. As they all left, I thought through my options ~ catch up on laundry or go out and about?

Hmm…well, do you see pictures of clothing on the line!? My eldest and I packed up the babes and headed out to explore a new-to-us yarn shop. So fun! The owner was pleasant and answered various crocheting and knitting questions :: then she assisted me in casting on for a sweet baby hat using double pointed needles (a bit scary to use I think!). We left with free patterns, lots of ideas and new ‘friends’ in the fiber arts world. I’ll be back again to visit this little place.

from the weekend

2010-07-26T07:54:00.001-04:00

an evening fire by moonlight, with the man of my dreams

sharing thoughts, dreams, realities

pausing together to enjoy the stillness of the night

and to create a ‘still’ moment in our full week

birthday celebrations for a 20-year old

flower deliveries, cards, gifts, visits & phone calls

all of us around the table enjoying the requested birthday dinner :: fajitas!

creating!

enjoying the wide-eyed wonder of a little one {Isaiah at 3 weeks}

participating in Multitude Mondays over at A Holy Experience

full, full days

2010-07-21T09:32:00.001-04:00

I am in a major ‘getting ready for the fall’ and organization mode around here! My husband often comments that I’m usually organizing something in our home. Ha. Ha. And I usually don’t laugh with him. But seeing that May and June were spent vacationing for a week, camping for a weekend, attending a high school reunion out of state, and welcoming a new little one….well, by last week I felt completely out of sorts. All I’ve basically done so far this summer is pack and unpack as we traveled around.

We start school in two weeks, our daughter and grandson just moved in {bringing us to a total of 8 people}, there are three children’s birthdays to celebrate in the next 6 weeks, and the fall is our busiest time of year. I desperately needed a plan! And so I made a h-u-g-e list, a long list {I do love a good list!} that is being carried around the house, to stores and outside as to-do tasks are accomplished and crossed off. Much progress is being made…yes.

Right now there is fullness, but a good kind! I leave you with a few photos from our days ::

:: making sweet treats

:: catching the sunlight

:: watching the miracles play

a bit of blueberry

2010-07-16T09:59:00.001-04:00

Yesterday I couldn’t decide which fruit dessert to indulge in :: blueberry crisp or strawberry shortcake?

Decisions, decisions! So I made them both. But only the blueberry was eaten since our sweet tooth was satisfied after that; we’ll have the other tonight. Summer fruit is in plenty around here and we’re putting away and eating as much as possible.

Hope you’re enjoying a bit of summer goodness too?

And may your weekend be full of grace….enjoy!

found a name

2010-07-14T07:56:00.000-04:00

I think I’ve found it.

My grandma name :: one that fits me and one that my children’s offspring will hopefully enjoy calling me.

But before that grand announcement {no pun intended!}, I have to tell you that I’ve completely obsessed about this. Even in the middle of tossing emotions, as the thought of becoming ‘grandmother’ to some little person hit me, I would starting thinking of a name. What are they all going to call me?

I thought of just allowing little Isaiah to name me and set the tone for future grandchildren :: but then my husband went ahead and chose his own name.

Papa.

Great. Now I felt the need to choose one too! So I obsessed a bit more…{by this I mean that Google became a near & dear friend for several days; alright, that is a slight exaggeration}

Then one morning out of the blue, a name popped into my head. Nia. Nia (pronounced nee-ah).

Ooooh, I liked it. Short, cute, sweet and yet I can imagine it growing with me. I wrote it out, whispered it often and matched it up with grandpa’s choice. Papa and Nia. Nia and Papa. Yep, this was a keeper.

True to my personality, knowing it was a choice for a girl’s name (though I’ve never met anyone with the name), I looked it up to be sure it didn’t have an odd meaning. And that discovery sealed the deal ~

Origin and Meaning of the Name Nia :: radiance, brightness; also from a Swahili word meaning purpose.

Yes.

Oh, I seriously hope Isaiah likes it too.

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where would I be?

2010-07-12T09:03:00.002-04:00

without Your word to lead and guide
sustaining me, encouraging me
rebuking me.

how would I know?

that You love me fully,

lavishly and with abandon

that I can never escape this love.

where would I be without Your word?

Lost. I would be utterly lost.

thank You, gracious One. thank You for the written word.

in the midst

2010-07-09T10:09:00.001-04:00

In the middle of everything {I’ll just let that word cover all from minor to major stuff}, I try to always be aware of the everyday, the common things to be grateful for. Instead of listing out my own gifts today, I encourage the community of readers here to consider starting their own gratitude list. Maybe you’ll blog it. Or just a notebook that is written in as time allows. Maybe you’ll just make a list for today. Whatever the avenue, pause and look for the gifts around you. Why? I offer a short list~

Gratitude rejects negativity. It will literally push away the small talk of complaining! This is not a practice of denying the realities we face, but rather allowing gratefulness to also fall from our lips.

Gratitude focuses on God’s goodness, not the lack of it. Whining and grumbling foster an attitude of telling God what He has not done, but gratitude has the opposite effect.

Gratitude reduces stress. Simply Google that phrase and find a wealth of information on the topic. Not only in Christian circles, but health magazines, workplace websites, etc. Give yourself a break and express gratefulness today!

And remember always that gratitude is a choice; it will not just happen, we must make it happen and be intentional in the pursuit.

So, as we enter a weekend full of what ever life holds for you :: can we pause a moment and write out a few thanksgivings? Be blessed friends…

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meeting Isaiah

2010-07-04T10:20:00.000-04:00

last week we welcomed into our family

6 pounds 5 ounces and 19 inches of...

...pure grace.

meet grandson Isaiah.

Photo and video editing at www.OneTrueMedia.com

{I chose a song that has meant much to me the last several months :: rest assured it's a song of celebration, not sadness. You can find the beginning of Isaiah's story here}

the delicate dance

2010-06-30T09:29:00.001-04:00

{this space is mostly a record of joy, the beauty around me and the life I’m privileged to have. today I post a mixture :: a bit of reflection on news that has pierced our hearts, wounded our spirits and brought a ray of joy as well. I believe it’s only right to be true and honest, even in blog world; especially in blog world. it’s the story of a dance…and with my daughter’s permission, I record a little of the journey here…}

She’s a wisp of a girl still, this graduate of mine.

Tender and tough has been the journey between us :: the closeness we share is evident through memories past and present. And memories still to be made in the future. She’s a good girl, she is. And oh, how I love her.

Because of her, I’ve grown and matured. Children have this effect I believe :: exposing the vanity that can often envelope our hearts as parents. This Mama was a very young mother full of expectation, determination and…pride. I often observe other mothers now and chuckle softly to myself, knowing that one day they too will wake up to the fact that maybe, just maybe…they are not the best mother in the world. God usually doesn’t allow pride to have much room; He knows it’s a trap.

So my girl and I grew together as the family grew as well. The road we’ve traveled has encountered its mountains and valleys, but we all set our sights high. The fabric of our family, pieced together by His grace, has been strong. And as we approached the end of a chapter to exchange high school years for young adult ones…that strength was tested. And often the material frayed or was torn in places. Yet, grace always mended the wrongs and patched up offenses. And the journey continued…

It’s a delicate dance, motherhood.

Often you topple between the partners of both grief and joy, sashaying across the floor with celebration the day they’re born or come into your life, say their first word, enter school years and take the first calculated risk that works out right. The world is right-side up, laughter bubbles and all is well…joy!

And then there are days of painful tears~theirs and yours as you each face disappointments and the reality that this life on earth…well, it’s just not going to be perfect, or even beautiful always. That’s for another time and another place. When the ever gentle hand of the bearer of tears will wipe them away from our faces for the last time. Oh, hallelujah. Until then, motherhood sometimes dances with sadness :: heart heavy and steps awkward, an unwelcome union.

I’ve waltzed with both partners through the nearly 20 years of mothering; and the last several months found me stumbling between the two as my husband and I learned that our unwed teenage daughter was expecting, due 11 months after the last grace gift entered the family. Our world came to a screeching halt.

At first, there were no words, none whatsoever. There was nothing really but the auto-pilot nature that I’ve been given to just keep swimming, even if it’s upstream. She needed us. We are committed to her. And that was that.

But not really. And there began a dance so wild, but not free. So tender, but so broken. And so desperately in need. I argued with my Savior, tossing my grief and even anger His way. I ‘gave up’ on certain days and wanted to quit…quit what? Well, anything really. Just to feel in control of something. I did not despair of life, but I did despair. For a time, there was little consolation of spirit.

Then the dance grew more still as the days passed. No longer the frantic movements of a wounded spirit, whirling across the floor with sorrow as a primary partner. With that same determination of a young mother’s heart, I chose an additional companion. Not in denial or some fake-Christianity tactic, but a true bona fide choice to take it one step at a time. With Him. For really, what other option would lead me to freedom?

When I could not see how to move forward, He answered. He spoke words that have sustained me and kept my feet from falling. He showed me how to continue in light of all of our ministry and family responsibilities. He would not let me quit.

And as the news has gone public, He is here. Not being one to become consumed by other’s opinions or thoughts on my personal matters, I find this the easier portion of the journey though the loss of privacy is unsettling. I had to find my footing with my Jesus first and foremost. Oh, careless words find their way in and wound…I am human. And the silence of friends messes with my mind :: for the life of me, I cannot understand why Christians (Christians!) stay quiet when they can offer an encouraging word—what are we so afraid of?

But all this aside for now...there’s a new grace gift coming! And my heart has always and will always believe and proclaim that all children are a gift straight from the throne of heaven. That’s how the Creator set it up. What a super brilliant idea. So we’ve prepared our hearts and minds around this reality.

I’m not afraid to admit that every so often I still weave a path between grief and joy; swaying softly among the two.

There’s no embarrassment in saying that :: it’s a dance after all….

{prayers for our family are appreciated ~ that we would fear God & honor His ways, that the darkest days are behind us and that we would all walk as children of the light. thank you.}

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sweetness

2010-06-29T09:40:00.001-04:00

Often when sibling mayhem of the grandest sort breaks out around here…

I am reminded of times when there is tenderness between the relationships of brothers and sisters in our home. Days where everyone seems to get along without reminders from Mom; laughter, play, and peace.

And the four in our home think of and pray often for the one who is not :: an older sister far away from their daily lives, but not from their hearts. The sweet little prayers that are said, the emails sent, the phone conversations :: oh, they melt me on the inside! Truly a gift, it is.

in need of grace

2010-06-28T05:54:00.000-04:00

{a repost from my archives}

As this day begins, for each new dawn....

I need grace.

I thirst for this living water throughout my days. Days full of laundry and schooling, meal preparations, phone call interruptions, the repetitive nature of training children....
my list goes on.

I need You, Father. Fill me today with grace so that I might serve your kingdom well.

"The grace that restores is necessary to preserve,
lead, guard, supply, help me...

Every new duty calls for more grace than I now possess,
but not more than is found in thee. May I find thy grace sufficient for all of my needs." {excerpt from Valley of Vision}

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being

2010-06-18T14:16:00.001-04:00

being outdoors, relaxing in the shade ::

knitting (I taught myself!), reading for homeschooling, staring at baby toes

:: enjoying yesteryear through good books

:: exploring new textures through play

enjoy the weekend, play outdoors!

giveaway!

2010-06-17T17:30:00.010-04:00

Want to win the most elite of dehydrator's? Visit Stephanie's site, Keeper of the Home for information. Ends next week, so hurry!

right now

2010-06-17T09:56:00.001-04:00

Oh, life is full right now! Full of goodness, full of randomness (is that a word?) and a tinge of heaviness, though overall much is good. Ever have a season like that?

I have found that when the pendulum swings a little too far off and I feel a bit out of balance or the ‘carpet pulled out from under my feet’….seeking out His grace gifts all around restores perspective. Oh, His grace. It is more than sufficient :: much more than I deserve or can ask or hope for. And so I praise Him….

for the completion of another school year of learning and growing with my children

for they have taught me much

the freshness of new growth :: vegetables, fruits in season

the sound of the birds, whispering their songs outside my window

the love of cooking :: making & creating

for the promise of beauty rising from ashes

for the faithfulness of a husband who protects and provides

the steadiness of friendship

laughter! :: the gift of humor is truly that…a gift

for my One and Only, Jesus. How I love you so.

Pause today and reflect ~ give thanks for the grace all around, always present.

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finding purpose in photography

2010-06-08T07:51:00.001-04:00

In the last number of years I’ve been scrapbooking, I have enjoyed taking pictures. Lots and lots of pictures (I’m most grateful for the invention of the digital camera)! Mostly pictures of my children and family or of the events that touch of our lives. In the past year or so, there’s been a new energy for photographing nature and the surrounding beauty :: bits & pieces of the outdoor world that really went unnoticed before. By the way, thanks for the compliments on the photographs of our vacation! I treasure the ones posted (and the other several hundred that were taken. Ahem.)

I recently commented to someone that this snapping of nature photos is my preference :: “I really don’t like taking pictures of people outside of my family” was jokingly said, but in reality it’s fairly close to the truth. The person I was sharing with takes beautiful photos of others ~ somehow, this avenue just doesn’t inspire me that much (I’m still a good person, right? :o)

But in the last few days, I’ve changed my mind. Radically.

On vacation I began this book, a story of grief and loss mixed in with joy :: a family’s journey through the difficult set of circumstances of losing their baby girl two hours after birth (and knowing all along she would not live long). It was all I could do to read the first few chapters; while my situation is altogether different and one that hasn’t found words in this space…the delicate dance of grief and joy is our family’s current reality and the tender words of the author were too much. And so I moved on to other books.

But I could feel a prompting to return, to look back through the pages and to continue reading. I’m so glad I did.

For in the pages, I discovered an organization that stuck a deep chord inside of me and prompted a conversation with my spouse of how I could be involved. Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep was founded in 2005 by parents who lost their baby and whose mission is ‘to introduce remembrance photography to parents suffering the loss of a baby with the free gift of professional portraiture.’ A group of more than 7,000 photographers around America and in 25 other countries who volunteer their time and gifts to grace those hurting with pictures of their little one.

For free.

Oh, how my heart was moved. I could take pictures of this group of people, yes I would want to.

And while at this very moment in my life, there is not the freedom to pursue right now (my preference!), I hear the voice of Jesus calling me to sharpen this skill and love for photography :: as I shoot and capture my children’s antics or a baby’s smile, to learn more and grow more comfortable. And one day, I hope to volunteer….

{photo from Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep’s website}

putting food by

2010-06-07T09:35:00.001-04:00

This year I’ve got a serious plan to put away food ~ a lot of food, as much seasonal produce as I can! So, with bags still unpacked from our vacation, the children and I headed out to a friend’s strawberry patch to pick…and pick and pick. In reality there is still quite a bit of jam from last year and we didn’t take home that much. These berries will be used for smoothies and pies I think. I’m hoping to do asparagus and broccoli soon. Yum.

A great online resource for freezing and canning just about anything is Pick Your Own (with lots of pictures for the visual learner!) How about you—putting any food by?

snapshots no. 5 :: home again

2010-06-04T09:08:00.001-04:00

final stop ~ my husband’s parents both have family reunions Memorial Day weekend!

worship service in the park :: food, food, food (every year they seem to add more!?) :: bounce house, playground and lots of friends to enjoy :: catching up from last year :: snow cones :: meeting new babies and introducing our own :: celebrating newlyweds :: prizes and giveaways :: grieving those who have passed on :: great-grandparents smiling wide & doting on the younger generation :: an overall fun and wonderful time

and finally, we arrived home again earlier this week. home to new floors (yes!), a stack of unopened mail, emails and phone calls to attend to and other stuff like that. but hearts full, spirits rested and memories made…a super week!

snapshots no. 4

2010-06-01T12:02:00.002-04:00

the big city of Washington, D.C. :: underground transportation :: reading maps and learning how to get around :: famous buildings :: jump shots in front of the capitol :: piggy-back rides on the mall :: lunch with Grandaddy :: cool treats for a hot day :: carousel rides :: smithsonian air and space museum :: a full day!

snapshots no. 3

2010-05-29T08:30:00.000-04:00

saying good-bye to our nature retreat...

a change of pace :: quick stop home and then we headed south to the big city

oh, the joys of childhood :: there's nothing quite like jumping on a hotel bed!

pictures of 'the big city' to come! enjoy your weekend, friends....

snapshots no. 2

2010-05-27T15:18:00.000-04:00

nature center exploration :: moose, coyotes, and other wild things :: extra-long snake skins amazing a little boy :: trail hikes and walks (begged for by the children!) :: more paddle boat rides :: swimming :: baby feet and hands :: planning for bike rides :: beauty and moonlight

struck by the wonder of it all.

snapshots

2010-05-25T15:10:00.000-04:00

UNO games right after breakfast :: paddle boat rides :: have blender, will travel with green smoothies :: in awe of His beauty filling our senses :: sunlight, warmth :: quiet hour activities :: bubbles (enjoyed by Mama as well) :: thinking, talking, sharing :: ideas and plans for our stay here :: excited voices of little ones.....

a pause from the everyday.

in the book bag

2010-05-22T09:45:00.001-04:00

We're heading out for a week long away-from-home time as a family :: otherwise known as a little vacation. Flooring is being replaced while we're gone, and that news is very exciting!

So, the last several days have been spent packing and gathering a few goodies to pass the time next week. Books for me, a geography outline to help with next year's planning, and some as family read alouds, good stuff. Oh, I know it's a bit ambitious to think they will all get read through, but one has to have goals right? We'll see what happens.

enjoy a blessed weekend....

‘tis the season

2010-05-05T11:20:00.002-04:00

to be jolly…

…about YARD SALES! or garage sales, or tag sales—whatever the wording may be for your part of the country. Having lived from the deep South all the way up to the Northeast, I’ve noticed that there are several different names for the event. Interesting.

I had vowed to fully declutter our home before heading out to search for ‘treasures’ among the discards of others, but well, that hasn’t happened. I tried…really. But last Saturday morning found us out and about as the girls decided to join in on the fun. Homeschooling materials, home decor, summer clothing for the baby…we had a great shopping experience.

But in an attempt towards frugal living, I am also challenged not to bring stuff home simply because it’s inexpensive; often I have to remind myself that we do not need a particular item. Saying ‘no’ is a little hard at times!

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thinking ahead

2010-04-28T20:19:00.001-04:00

Another year of home educating is coming to a close, and this Mama finds it a little bittersweet.

My second girl is wrapping up elementary school and it’s hard to believe that seventh grade is right around the corner! Okay, we do have the summer in between…but wow. Girl number three closes the door on first grade and the little boy born just ‘yesterday’ is joyfully looking forward to next year, and the next year, and the next year…

And so it goes.

I should be excited that they are all so thrilled with homeschooling—I am too and right now can’t imagine another road to travel. Had you asked me about six weeks ago I probably would have had a different answer though! We have our days. In the next few weeks I hope to write a little here and there about our year, so we can remember and give thanks.

Plans have begun floating around in my head for next year—plotting and thinking through what our days will hold and how it will work together (the baby will NOT be a sleeping infant but a toddling little boy). But first, warmer months are coming and we’re all looking forward to a break and some new activities!

To all other homeschoolers out there….a happy ending to your year (whenever that may be)!

A few treats before you go~

Have you been to Simple Homeschool’s site yet? It’s a new community and very informative.

A suggestion on how to organize homeschool days :: seek to scale seven daily rungs on the ladder

The best book on educating children that I have read so far :: this one is dog-eared, underlined and highlighted throughout!

And here’s a post that’s not necessarily about homeschooling, but on living life on purpose—deliberately, intentionally. Great for homeschooling Mamas don’t you think?

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after the weekend

2010-04-26T11:46:00.001-04:00

It’s been busy around these parts…time spent planning and such for a women’s retreat our church hosted this weekend, and what turned out to be a super wonderful experience! :: I’ll be reflecting for days to come.

But when all is said and done on such a project, I usually spend a day or two ‘roaming’, with no particular agenda in mind. Yesterday’s rainy weather was perfect for~

:: stepping back into time. The Young Victoria was released last week and it was placed into my Netflix account to be delivered this weekend (in time for my retreat after The Retreat!). It’s okay, but the made-for-TV Victoria & Albert from 2001 was much, much better!

:: dreaming of strawberry season and wanting to make a version of these parfaits

:: admiring this square foot garden~beautiful!

:: making plans to host a shrimp boil early this summer…and maybe later in the summer as well! Yum.

Most of all, there was lots of hot tea, conversations with my spouse & best friend (the same person!) and listening to children’s adventures while I was away for the day.

Fullness…

photoplay

2010-04-14T16:47:00.001-04:00

A photo & post from the archives, a daily lesson reminder~

This is my youngest daughter, one winter years ago, looking outside of our glass door desperately desiring to be on the other side participating in the big world outdoors, no matter how blustery. She had been there for a while (if you look closely, you'll see her breath on the pane).

Yep, this picture for me probably sums up a life lesson on motherhood.

Taking time with my little ones, and my not so little ones, while they are still on this side of the glass pane so to speak--with me, close by, within my reach--before they leave and go out to the other side.

To create their own worlds and homes.

I'm not too sure what the weather will be or what life may hold for them, but the opportunity to bring them near and prepare their hearts and minds for the future is a precious gift not taken lightly.

And one that I’m seeking to fully enjoy.

This post is part of High Calling Blogs prompt, capturing life lesson reminders in a photo.

what I love

2010-04-14T15:26:00.001-04:00

Little girl who tries to be like her Mama…journaling, collecting pictures and pasting away.

"Our children are watching us live,

and what we ARE shouts louder

than anything we can say." - Wilferd A. Peterson

never again

2010-04-09T14:52:00.001-04:00

{I recently wrote this for our church women’s newsletter}

The following is a true story. The facts have not been altered in any way.

The date is February 10, 2009, one full of activities as we had a child’s birthday to celebrate. At a point that morning I finally decided all was calm enough to quickly finish getting ready. I separated my crew and my then 10 and 3 year-olds were in the basement playing, the 6 year-old birthday girl in my room. Yes. Naively I slipped behind the double doors of our bedroom for just a few minutes alone, every mother of little-ones-at-home dream come true. All of a sudden, my 10-yr old daughter comes in yelling at the top of her lungs...."MOM, the POLICE are here!!" My first thought was of my husband in an accident.

"What!? At our door?"

"YES! Oh Mom, are we in trouble!? Did you get a ticket or something!? WHY are they here!?" Like I knew that. So I ask her to open the door while trying to pull myself together. What in the world could the police want with me? Running downstairs, I find two officers questioning my daughter.

'So, you don't have school today?'

'Oh, I'm homeschooled.' At that point I wanted to yell...Oh no, she's not!! because I knew what they had to be thinking. But I stayed silent since shock had settled in. Just in perfect timing, my 3-yr old son—the culprit who accidentally called 911 in the first place—came around the corner waving a piece of bread on a stick and asked the policemen if they wanted to play campfire and did they happen to have any marshmallows?

Again, I had nothing to say. Imagine the headlines now: “Mute Woman Attempts to Homeschool Children, Investigation Pending”. I did wonder where the bread had come from...wasn’t he supposed to be in the basement?

One officer began cancelling the fire department & ambulance on their way as well. I finally spoke up when asked for my name, date of birth, etc. and as they left, I apologized profusely. Mortification doesn’t even begin to describe what I was experiencing, let me tell you.

Closing the door behind me, my mind began racing with a resolute vow...

I will never, ever again...

I will never again. Ever uttered those words as a response? Ever felt the need to shelter and shield yourself from further or repeated pain? To never again want to experience anything that would even come close to representing what you’ve been through? John Eldredge, author of Wild at Heart, comments in his book that we often make vows from our place of ‘woundedness’. From the place of hurt, embarrassment, anger or any other hosts of deep emotion emerges a resolve to never, ever...well, fill in the blank. I’m sure we all can.

Yes, my run-in with the law was a tad humiliating and by no means a real wound so to speak. But it reminded me then and now of how I’ve so quickly done the hard work of building a wall of ‘never again’ protection only to realize that this same wall was keeping me captive. Keeping out the unwanted maybe, but also blocking the good trying to flow into my life.

It’s hard. Some of the experiences we’ve been through have left us raw and yes, wounded. I’m not trying to advocate a simple 1-2-3 ‘get over it’ plan that means little. I wouldn’t do that; life has dished out a few situations of my own to demonstrate how trite this would be. However, very delicately, I will suggest another alternative.

Let God take the never again. Gather up every one of those resolves, those vows made in the midst of pain and hurl them at His feet. Cast them off, shed them like the dirty laundry they are spiritually and stand there bare before Him. They’re too weighty to carry anyway, am I right? Do it again and again if need be. Then allow Him to robe you in His clothing of peace to your soul and a heart willing to try again, live again, BE again. He desires this for you...will you let Him?

As for me, I’ve decided that age 15 is when my children can finally be trusted to be alone; so by 2025 I can hopefully enjoy those few minutes by myself!

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extraordinary grace

2010-04-05T07:04:00.001-04:00

fullness from the weekend ~ the grace gifts ::

Good Friday observance with church family, little ones & big ones, young & old all remembering together

songs of praise—He is risen!

family togetherness, quiet afternoons

a new Passover meal tradition! new life cakes…cupcakes in a planting pot!

so very grateful for a husband who understands and allows for my bursts of creativity :: ideas that must come to pass…now! please run to the store to purchase a few terra cotta pots? thanks much hon

children excited once again for celebrations that mean much to our family

Passover candles shining & reminding of His light

little boy breathing easier after last week’s asthma attack

his parents breathing easier too, so grateful to stay out of the hospital

sweet sibling comfort offered to this little brother, prayers said

family.

experience Calvary

2010-04-02T13:23:00.001-04:00

may you experience Calvary this weekend

I pray your senses are filled—that you see, hear, touch and feel the pain & beauty of our Lord’s sacrifice

remembering He was ripped open so that our wounds could be closed

so we could not just be saved once, but be renewed daily, filled continually with his presence

Yeshua, Jesus

made His way to Calvary.

Let’s make our way to Him.

A blessed Easter to all…..

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ordinary days

2010-03-30T07:36:00.000-04:00

You know…some days are just plain boring.

Yep, you read that right :: boring and ordinary.

Or at least it can seem that way to this stay-at-home Mama whose often tired of hearing the echo of sibling squabbles, or seeing the room just cleaned become a perfect storm. Some nights I fall into bed thinking ‘I seriously hope tomorrow is better’ before drifting off into a deep sleep ::

that is, if no one enters our room at three a.m. searching for his blue blanket, which is right next to his pillow.

Of course.

Ordinary days. Laundry, cooking dinner (that may or may not pass for a ‘good meal’), sweeping and wiping up messes, losing patience and praying for more, and the list goes on. But ordinary can be good I’m thinking because those days remind us or at least hopefully teach us to appreciate the extraordinary moments. You know…the ones where I don’t hear or see the children, go into a serious panic, only to find them contentedly lying on the couch listening to big sister reading aloud. Yes.

But if I live this parenting life waiting solely for the mountain-top experiences, I’m setting myself up (and my children) for major disappointment on a regular basis. I must learn to appreciate the ordinary and accept it as part of the experience.

Our Master had ordinary days—times where he had to settle disputes among his children (um, disciples), clean up messes & mistakes (like bloody ears, eww) and felt exhausted…so exhausted he slept through the perfect storm. Jesus was one extraordinary God-man whose days were filled with the ordinary of life.

And so it is with us :: when life is boring, or plain, with nothing really exciting happening…it’s okay and not a sign of defeat or a reason for disappointment. It’s just simply part of the experience.

Embrace it.

photo of a simple extraordinary moment:

good book, iPod humming tunes, homemaking journal, and hoping the baby on the other end of that monitor naps long.

on being twice-born

2010-03-29T07:09:00.002-04:00

the first birth :: gratitude for

the hope of new life sustaining pain suffered,

underneath the messy coating of birth fresh beauty never seen before

anticipation settled,

joy unexplainable…

Is this how you reflect upon my birth, precious Lord? Oh, not just the first time :: years ago when I physically entered this arena for life on earth. But the second birth, the one that ties me eternally to You.

Did thoughts of new life coming to your people—the opportunity for fresh relationship—keep you from fleeing the pain of the cross?

Even in the bloody mess did You anticipate salvation settled once and for all?

~ ~ ~

Oh, how I thank you for my second birth! I pause and give gratitude for…

no longer being separated, but connected

Your sacrifice taking my place, making a way

sins lifted, grace given

joy unexplainable…

photo of my youngest son, moments after birth (August 2009)

gratitude comes softly

2010-03-22T11:34:00.003-04:00

sometimes,

it’s hard to see the good. when life’s messes flow freely and the grace always present is flooded by it all.

grace gifts can be hard to spot in murky waters.

but He who is grace, who rises above the flood, is here. and while gratitude does not always come with loud claps of excitement or with shouts…gratitude is what He deserves.

for laughter :: spouse to spouse, side-splitting, tear-inducing laughter

make-up smudges on little girl’s face from use of Mama’s things

sunshine and rain, both needed and appreciated

a girl proud of improvement in math skills

brothers snuggling together

phone calls from my sister, encouraging & uplifting

short words that sit long in my heart

bike rides long-awaited, finally it’s time

butterfly kisses from little ones

spiritual energy renewed

photo credit

sibling love

2010-03-18T08:19:00.001-04:00

Oh, how we’re enjoying the sunlight and warmer weather up here in the North! Yes. Spring is on the way!

And, here’s a picture of little piggies in the sunlight. Just because.

full of thanks

2010-03-15T15:36:00.002-04:00

gratitude for the everyday ::

moments of silence, time to contemplate and ponder, enjoying the stillness

hearing of a little girl’s dreams to grow things

baby’s kisses, sloppy and wet

celebrating God’s grace, His goodness with all the saints in our church community

spouse to spouse sharing :: dreams, thoughts, past and present

for the freedom and right to educate my children

for the peace we experience in our home, even in the midst of difficulty

for better bellies! the exit of a relentless stomach virus

for the promise of spring :: all things new

photos of last year’s spring arrival

around the web

2010-03-12T06:23:00.000-05:00

I’ve been printing off lists for spring cleaning and such around here. Actually, I think that fall cleaning has more benefit as the efforts seem to last longer, but in our home full of little ones and full of family life, twice a year decluttering and re-organizing is very helpful to this Mama. Besides, nothing happened this past fall since taking care of baby and staying sane was the main priority {said with a smile}! By the way, that still is a priority, but now the baby sleeps longer!

Well, while perusing various sites, distraction hit a bit and so here’s a few goodies for all~

:: first off, the cleaning and decluttering lists are found at Flylady’s site, who is currently doing a week-by-week schedule to home clean-up. I’m not participating, but it’s seems helpful.

:: comfort soup season is probably over, but this Tuscan-style Potato Soup from Lindsay looks too delicious! Agree?

:: the kids and I will have to try these creamy mango pops this summer. I love mangoes!

:: I’m all about simple toys for children, especially babies; making a few discovery bottles for our 7-month old has been easy and fun. Ours are simply glitter & water, googly-eyes and cotton balls in small plastic containers or water bottles.

:: I want to conquer the fear of sewing clothing and make a few twirly skirts for our 7-yr old. It’s hard to find modest skirts for young girls these days, so my frustration led to a search for a simple skirt with simple instructions. Let’s hope I can follow through!

:: As we’ve entered into the Lenten and Easter season, I’m using this book to focus on the sacrifice of Christ. So. Very. Good. A bit deep in parts, but very good. I will use this in future years as well.

:: And what else? Oh yes…I’m trying to find room in next year’s homeschooling budget to purchase a home laminator. This is an extra, not really a necessity though it would get used often. This ‘obsession’ has led to trying to find free history and science curriculums online so I can eliminate those purchases! It’s all a game….

Hope you and yours are well, enjoy a blessed weekend!

homeschool update

2010-03-10T10:26:00.001-05:00

The children have declared that I do not write as much about their schooling as I used to. They’re right. When we had a ‘school’ blog, much of their accomplishments and activities were recorded with consistency. Ahem. A few family members have noticed as well. So I’m guilty.

Here’s a little bit of a picture update~

:: Jordyn recently took a class for 1st-3rd graders at a local art school and loved it. She is now teaching the rest of us the finer points of watercolors, Monet, and drawing. Photos are from the art show held for parents & family; the top~ both works of art are hers; the bottom~ the one in the middle is hers.

:: Josiah working on building up those fine motor muscles with clothespins and starting a low-key introduction to simple addition (the worksheets are not for him :o). We also use these cards (one for each number zero to ten) to line up the numbers in order smallest to biggest or vice versa.

:: Jordyn & Josiah’s recent ‘science experiment’! Which one melts faster—ice in the cold outside or ice in the sunlight on our windowsill? Waiting and timing the whole thing and then writing down our results. The reason for a sudden interest in doing an experiment….

…was because big sister Janelle was busy doing her own science project for a class.

I have to tell you that homeschooling can really stretch you :: when my child is interested in a subject—extracting DNA—that is foreign to me, well, it’s time to dig deeper! I am grateful for the internet.

The whole process is explained here and we really had fun figuring out how to get the DNA of split-peas out; then using various mediums to open the nucleus of the cells to see which would produce the most DNA. Are you confused yet? My girl knew what she was talking about though I had to catch up. Now, I’m informed!

Sorry for the poor picture, but the stringy white stuff floating on top of the green pea mixture at the bottom is the DNA! Watching her excitement made the process worth it.

And the littlest one is working on being cute. Making faces, smiling, laughing, babbling.

Good stuff and entertaining to us all!

seven things about me

2010-03-04T15:53:00.002-05:00

Tracey over at In Word Adorning gave me a blog award (thanks!!) and asks that I list seven things about me, so here goes~

:: I am wordy. I really TRY to say it, write it, share it all in a smaller amount of words, but it just doesn’t work that way. This post will probably get longer as you read.

:: I LOVE to read. Love, love, love to read and therefore I own a ton of books, but not as many as I would like. When my children move on, their rooms will be converted into mini libraries (joke….I think.)

:: I am super passionate about several things, but mostly about children—my own and those around the globe. The care of, the education of (whatever form that is in) and the raising of these gifts from God. I hope to always be an advocate for children in some way.

:: I sometimes dream about being a doula. Or a midwife, but that’s too much responsibility.

:: I am the type of girl who will bust out laughing in the middle of dead silence at something that happened yesterday. Or last year.

:: I am an introvert and at times rather shy. I definitely enjoy being around people & having fun, but feel most refreshed having spent time alone.

:: I could be happy living in the big city or on a large farm—really. Both are appealing in various ways. I know—I’m confused.

Okay! I’ll pass this on to anyone who wants to participate!

how to love for mothers

2010-02-25T10:26:00.001-05:00

I recently shared this paraphrase with a group of Moms from our church. Thought it might bless someone today:

I Corinthians 13 paraphrased for Moms (from the book A Mother's Heart by Jean Fleming)

If I keep my house immaculately clean, and am envied by all for my interior decorating, but do not show love in my family---I'm just another housewife.

If I'm always producing lovely things--sewing, art; if I always look attractive, and speak intelligently, but am not loving to my family--I am nothing.

If I'm busy in community affairs, teach Sunday school, and drive in the carpool, but fail to give adequate love to my family--I gain nothing.

Love changes diapers, cleans up messes, and ties shoes--over and over and over again.

Love is kind, though tired and frazzled.

Love doesn't envy another wife--one whose children are 'spaced' better or in school so she has time to pursue her own interests.

Love doesn't try to impress others with my abilities or knowledge as a mother.

Love doesn't scream at the kids and apologizes when I do.

Love doesn't feel cheated because I didn't get to do what I wanted to do today--sew, read, soak in a hot tub.

Love doesn't lose my temper easily.

Love doesn't assume that my children are being naughty just because their noise level is irritating.

Love doesn't rejoice when other people's children misbehave and make mine look good. Love is genuinely happy when others are honored by their children.

many are the plans

2010-02-19T15:26:00.001-05:00

Oh, I had grand ideas for this week! So proud was I of the snow days last week that provided for the pace of life to pause a little and for me to plan :: to write out all of my intentions, my vision of what our days should hold.

Not a bad thought naturally, necessary for living.

But I failed to check in along the way with the One who is the Master Planner. And thus, my frustrations at the interruptions or at the list that remains unchecked grew. Irritations that would have fallen off my mind before swelled & simmered in my heart.

Finally, as the days progressed, I saw the faults in my attempt to run life totally on my own. Again.

“Many are the plans in a man's heart,
but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails.” Proverbs 19:21

Those works ring true today, it’s His purpose that must rise above my own plans. So I choose today to attempt to see it all through heaven’s lens!

photo: four-year old’s coloring pencils left on the table

comfort soup

2010-02-12T14:42:00.001-05:00

This recipe from Vegan Soul Kitchen is good. Very good and the whole family liked it!

Butternut Squash-Pear Soup

3 TBsp olive oil

2 medium leeks (white & tender green parts), chopped finely

1 small butternut squash (about 2 lbs), peeled, seeded & cut into 1-inch pieces

3 pears (about 1.5 lbs) peeled & chopped into pieces

5 cups vegetable stock (or other if you don’t care about it being vegan or not)

coarse sea salt

1 14-ounce can coconut milk

2 sprigs thyme, minced (I used dried)

freshly ground white pepper

:: in a medium-size saucepan over medium low heat, warm oil and cook leeks until soft, about 8-10 minutes. Add the squash and pears and cook for 5 minutes. Add stock and bring to boil. Lower the heat, add 1/2 teaspoon salt & simmer until squash is fork-tender.

:: Stir in the coconut milk, then puree the soup in batches in an upright blender or use immersion blender. Add soup back in saucepan, stir in thyme, and warm over low heat for a few minutes. Season with white pepper & salt to taste.

Yields 4 to 6 servings

oh, no…

2010-02-09T17:49:00.001-05:00

Mommy, did you say we’re getting more snow!?

We’re settling in here for another snow storm, two in a week’s time for a total of three feet plus of the white fluffy stuff! What to do when we’re all in?

:: play several games of Twister Hopscotch

:: organize and plan ahead for busier times

:: make soup

:: shovel the snow

:: make paper dolls, lots of them

Hope that you’re cozy, whatever the weather where you live!

blog upgrades

2010-02-04T16:26:00.001-05:00

You may have caught on to them, there are a few blog upgrades to mention~

:: I’ve moved to a domain name and the blog is now dot ORG! You’ve been redirected if still using the blogspot address.

:: At the end of each post, there is a option bar for sharing the post’s contents on a variety of social networks like facebook or twitter, through email, or to simply add to your favorites page. Rest the mouse pointer over the bar and the options open right up!

:: I’ve redfined my ‘About’ page (sans photo, but that will come!). Also at top, click to read a new additional focus for the blog which I’m very excited about and will share more on soon.

think that’s it for now…..

food on the brain

2010-02-03T15:59:00.001-05:00

Yep. Food is on my mind these days. Having less time for other pursuits (such as sitting quietly to read a book), I’m finding that cooking is a solace, a bit of a retreat from it all so to speak. Yes, it gets routine and no, every evening doesn’t include a new recipe! But one of the benefits of enjoying cooking is that I get to both take care of my family and do something relaxing as well.

With a newly turned 6-month old (yikes, how did that happen?), there’s been a lot of making of baby food—pureed avocado, squash, bananas, and the like being eaten & stored up. I like the Super Baby Food book or Wholesome Baby Food website as a resource.

And I’ve been really getting into vegan cooking since several of us cannot have eggs or dairy—um, we still eat meat though so it’s a contradiction so to speak. Anyway! My new cookbook of interest is Vegan Soul Kitchen, a gift from my sister-in-law. This week I’ll be trying a butternut squash and pear soup that gets its creamy smoothness from coconut milk; the recipe had my mouth watering. We’ll see if the family likes it.

And though I don’t plan to grow a big garden this year, I’ve spent many evenings curled up in bed for a few minutes of browsing through Baker Creek Heirloom Seeds catalog. Oh. My. If you’re a gardener, get one of these! I plan to just do a few potted plants or a small raised bed. Here’s a great post on getting organized for a larger garden planting.

So…food, food, food. Does the mind and body good.

gratitude for the everyday

2010-01-27T00:08:00.001-05:00

This past week I’ve been focused on giving thanks for the common, the everyday…

such as ::

little fingers, so small, curling around my own

numerous notes from a certain 6-yr old writer, warming my heart

food in the freezer, the pantry and on our table

a hard-working spouse, making sure our family’s needs are met

smudges on my mirrors from the hands of small ones

laughter! that daily dose of good medicine

laundry to fold :: never-ending it seems, but grateful for it anyway

phone calls and emails that encourage

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relief for a nation

2010-01-14T15:39:00.001-05:00

May I encourage a gift to help with the relief in Haiti if your family has the means to do so?

Today my heart is overwhelmingly burdened for the children :: the many, many children who already suffered in this nation and who now have less hope than before. I pray & cry out for~

the orphanages that have been offset in their mission of providing safety and a place of refuge.

the little ones who cannot find their parents

children whose bellies will not be filled today, tonight or anytime soon

for the masses of innocent ones who are scared…so scared, and who do not understand

Oh Lord, be near.

January 13, 2010 :: the presidential palace in the capital of Haiti, where my grandfather worked in his lifetime

settling in to the new year

2010-01-14T08:22:00.004-05:00

First, thank you very much for the prayers :: our family members in Haiti were finally able to contact my mother yesterday, all are well! Homes have collapsed, life must restart afresh in a country that is devastated…there is a lot for them to take in. We rejoice in the news that they are safe!

Last week I finally decided to embrace the new year by moving out of vacation mode and gearing up for another season of fullness in our family. Inspired by the cookbooks recently checked out of the library, preparing and putting away some foodstuff for the upcoming weeks was top on the list. No pictures (at least not mine), we were too busy! We being my 11-yr old girl and I who worked away with a determined focus; lots of fun and memories made.

photo by beauty that moves

Here’s what we accomplished~

granola (recipe blogged about here)
in the VitaMix blender we made applesauce, almond butter, pureed butternut squash for the baby, and ground wheat berries for flour
the flour we used to make lots of orange cranberry muffins, loaves of pumpkin bread and dozens of oatmeal raisin cookies
the crockpots were bubbling with a few roasts and chicken was cooked and shredded for future use
oh, and we made samosas~just because (I used the recipe from Extending the Table cookbook, but there are many recipes on the web)

The whole plan began with the idea to make some soups to freeze, but as you can see, that didn’t happen. Hmmm…think I got distracted?

please pray

2010-01-12T21:22:00.002-05:00

Today’s news of the earthquake in Haiti is difficult to process…

I think of my mother’s extended family who live around the capital city, where headlines continually scream out the news of its devastation and utter collapse. Have any survived :: are they there?

Are there words for a time like this?

Please pray. For my Mom, for our family.

Thank you.

happy belated

2010-01-07T12:37:00.001-05:00

New year that is. Yes, it’s seven days into twenty-ten, but happy new year anyway. I hope you’re off to a better start than I am!

Oh, don’t worry it’s really not that bad. I’m just off to a really slow beginning, trying to accept that vacation mode is over. I’m not quite there yet, though I need to be—see my dilemma? In the back of my mind are the wonderful days surrounding the holidays; days where we slept in, roamed around in pajamas until mid-afternoon (seriously), played games, had little to no structure and overall had a blast! The last two weeks were relaxing. Being home and soaking in the comforts of all that represents was true bliss.

And now?

Now I need to get moving and fast! So yesterday, I decided to check some fresh cookbooks out the library.

photo by salt & chocolate

What? Cookbooks have nothing to do with getting organized and doing my work? Well, you’re most likely right…but they were the motivation needed. Knowing I wouldn’t sit to browse through those books until some projects were completed, my plan worked perfectly. The boys’ room is decluttered, laundry is being washed, meals have been thought through and I’ve actually cracked open the lesson planner to find out exactly what we’re supposed to be doing for homeschooling in January. Oh, I still really need to get ‘in the zone’…really. But at least it’s fun along the way.

So, happy belated new year!

more advent fun

2009-12-22T13:44:00.001-05:00

{painting & glittering wooden ornaments}

{making a snack for the birds :: pipe cleaners & plain Cheerios, hung outside on the trees}

{making ornaments for decorating & giving :: glass ornaments w/tops removed, acrylic paint dropped in & swirled around}

We also continue with our advent calendar of activities; some of what we’ve done recently~

chosen items for families around the world through the gift catalogs of World Vision & Gospel for Asia

snuggled up in PJs and read a book together

given the gift of laughter by telling jokes

gone out to eat as a family (a treat!) and given an extra tip to our waitress

enjoyed a movie together as a family

given the gift of our time by making a ‘coupon’ to serve another

surprised a neighbor with flowers on their doorstep

Hope the Advent season has been an enjoyable one for your family!

gifts of the season

2009-12-17T06:00:00.001-05:00

A kitchen full of the season’s sights, sounds and smells…true gifts of Christmas ::

siblings exchanging decorating ideas

gingerbread filling our senses

just as much icing in mouths as on cookies

a new Christmas CD to enjoy (one of Mama’s birthday presents last month)

family togetherness, including our home-for-a-visit nineteen yr-old

full hearts celebrating His coming

Christmas.

to stir the soul

2009-12-15T13:39:00.003-05:00

I am consistently amazed by the minds of young children :: the questions that arise from their understanding of whatever is being presented causes me to think, to reflect. I’m not only referring to my little ones, but also the many children I’ve had the privilege of teaching through the years. Truly a sight to behold.

Today in the midst of baking gingerbread cookies, pondering the Nativity story…a few of these questions stirred my soul.

“Mom, do you think Jesus missed heaven while he was here on earth?”

“Do you think he was really excited to go back after 33 years of being gone?”

Hands stop the mixer from stirring as this soul feels just as jumbled as the dough…

Oh, my.

I understand the feeling of longing for home, of being away from the place that represents comfort, peace, familiarity. Of wanting so much to return to the place where I belong. Home is dear to me; and while I enjoy travel and seeing new sites…home is often on my mind even then.

But that is not the story of our Christ. He wasn’t just here to visit and take in new surroundings, to collect snapshots. This was a mission He had been waiting to fulfill, one that involved much suffering, much pain. When all was complete, was He ready & excited for the journey home?

I answer my little one with a yes.

Yes…..I’m thinking he was ready to be home; and what a gift that He came.

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adoration

2009-12-10T06:04:00.000-05:00

To you Jesus, the One and Only…

explaining Your story to young minds and hearts pauses me, moves me to contemplation.

You left the glory of heaven. You came to earth.

little ones ask ‘why?’ and I explain :: but this heart is stirred, watery-eyes accompany my mind’s race to understand such profound love.

You promised to come :: and You did.

I am amazed and stunned really. The greatest story ever told still rocks my world, still leaves me speechless. Once again we pause to reflect on Your coming into obscure surroundings and situations. A humble entrance into a world that would both embrace and reject You.

will both accept and deny You.

I simply respond with adoration :: not always consistent or fervent, this act of worship. And I have no words fitting for such sacrifice…

…but perhaps maybe just that I love you and that I thank you.

simple adoration.